Prozac diary 1...

I have been on Escitalopram, an SSRI, for nearly 2 years now.

I don't care about the stigma attached to prozac, it did me good when I needed it. It gave me the opportunity to sort my self out after a horrendous nervous breakdown 2 years ago.

I'm unsure whether the medication gave me my life back, or whether I did it all myself. I certainly have a CBT head on my shoulder, but I think in the initial stages of crippling anxiety, the pills helped me lots.

There were no real side affects accept not being able to ejaculate. It didn't affect my arousal, but I would find it hard to climax. I could go all night, not always a big problem. But gone were the days of a quick 5 minute yank…

I'm now on half the dose I was, and I will be off the medication in 2 months time. Already I feel my mojo is back.

Lowering the dose scared me at first, but now I know I no longer needs the pills. I'm recovered entirely. I'm more confident than I have ever been, and in part I thank prozac for giving me that boost.

We need to break down the taboo of anti depressants, but at the same time people need to take them correctly. Lots of people stop taking them as soon as they feel better, and this is bad. So is drinking heavily whilst on them. I hardly drink anymore, and I am so pleased about that.

Today I started on 10mg, and I will be on this for 1 month before reducing again. This is the mile stone for me, fingers crossed…

My advice to people is that this kind of medication can be of great help to many people in a difficult time, but you need to use your time on medication constructively. You need to use the opportunity to make good choices in your life, and stop making mistakes of the past.

Go forth and be reborn...