Prozac diary 2

Continuing from my previous entry on prozac...

I am now on the lowest dose possible to buy over the counter. I am on this for 2 more weeks and then my relationship with prozac is over!

I feel amazing. Part of me is wishing I came off of the stuff sooner. I feel human again. I am no longer tired all the time. My leg tremor has virtually stopped, I get aroused so easily, I feel so happy and content, I do not dwell on the past. I feel completely at one.

Prozac helped me when I needed it, and many others could benefit from it's power. However, you cannot spend your life on it. You need to come off and be human again. Use prozac as an opportunity to use CBT and start to think positively and constructively.

Initially I was terrified about coming off of my medication, but now I am glad I have done. My message to all of those who are worried about reducing their medication, is not to be. As long as you have sorted your life out, and you know which path you are to take, then you no longer need the meds...

Diary of a non smoker entry 1

I'm a non smoker, I'm a non smoker, I'm a non smoker!

I am so anxious right now. I have gone 3 days without a cigarette, and I am ready to climb the walls. Tonight is the hardest night. I have fought severe cravings, and nearly cracked. I probably would have cracked if my parents weren't around to cast judgment.

I always have in the back of my mind "One cigarette isn't going to hurt," but I know it will. Each fag knocks minutes off of your life expectancy. I enjoy smoking, and part of my brain is saying "Why give up something that you enjoy?"

I am proud I resisted tonight, and decided I need to write about it. Somehow I feel this will keep me focused and motivated.

It is easy to feel lost, when you part from something that you thoroughly enjoy. I feel lonely. Honestly. Only a smoker or an ex smoker can understand this. I can only assume the non smokers out there think this is slightly pathetic. But, it really is difficult. More difficult than you can imagine.

I have decided to use very little nicotine replacement, and only use it when I have a major craving. This seems to help a bit in my times of crisis.

If only smoking was cheap, good for you, great for your skin, and smelt like Lush. Ah that would be bliss.

Wow, to think I will no longer stink, will have more money in my bank account, keep my youthful skin longer, and feel healthier. Great motivation. But will power is a must. Thinking of the benefits helps in the long term, but for the short term fix needed, the benefits pail in comparison.

I will keep this diary updated, as I am sure there will be plenty of drama ahead.

Gamer...

Would you date a gamer?

I wouldn't. Been there, got the t-shirt, it didn't fit!

I've had such a good time with various friends talking about our experiences of dating gamers. None of them were good. One of my dearest friends dated a gamer for several years, and she cannot believe she lasted so long.

Another friend split up recently from her gamer ex. She was heart broken, she loved him so much. He on the other hand thought more of his X-Box.

I dated a gamer once too, he was gay (obviously), but Lara Croft was far more appealing to him than me. His idea of a romantic night in was playing on his Play Station, whilst I watched. Sex was never an option. I would lay on the bed, wanting sex, hoping he would complete his level SOON. What sort of relationship is that?

Sex or a video game? Hmmm let me think!

Gamers do not have the ability to form human relationships, this is why they should stay away from other human beings. If you are a gamer, then this is a genuine life style choice, but do not pretend that you are capable of being in a grown up relationship.

Have you ever used the 'it's me or the playstation!' ultimatum? I have, and I came second. Final Fantasy totally kicked my arse!

Gamers lack all kinds of confidence, this is why they need to disappear into their little virtual worlds. How sad.

I love human contact, conversation, and company. I have tried to play games in the past, and got so bored. Battery chickens have better social skills.

Most people I know have dated a gamer at some point, and it has never lasted. They had little attention, little respect, and little sex. Housework never got done. Plates would pile high. Ash trays never got emptied. Pets did not go for walks.

A friend of mine told me how her gamer ex would wear the same clothes for days. I dated a gamer once, who showered once a fortnight. Not a word of a lie. I was young, naive, so don't judge me.

I would like to create an outreach service for gamers. I am being serious. Gamers need help.

I am sure I am going to upset some people, and I know there will be lots of gamers who think they can form a genuine human relationship. I would love to hear from a gamer who is in a happy relationship! Seriously, please contact me, let me know how you make it work. I would like to hear from your partner too.

This article is not just a out men. There are female gamers too. I used to live with one. We wouldn't see her for days, bill money would not get paid up, smoke would drift from under her door. You could smell the old pizza crusts rotting. And yes she was miserable. Instead of talking to people, and trying to get her life on track, she disappeared into a fantasy land.

Gaming is not healthy, and it is not attractive, and it is anti social.

The people I have spoken to, all seem happier after leaving their gamer exes. They feel free, liberate somehow. They are no longer frustrated, they no longer feel ignored or worthless.

I have spoken to some people who do not mind that their partners are gamers. They say that it is nice to have their own space. Sounds great doesn't it? But I do not want to be in a relationship where I can enjoy time on my own every day. I want to be in a relationship with somebody that wants to spend time with me. If you are in a relationship with a gamer, who prefers to spend his time with Lara Croft, then it is not a relationship worth having. You deserve to be with someone who you can stand to be with. Not be with someone who you can lock away in a room while he plays on computer games.

Games will always come first to a gamer. This is fact! You cannot compete with a Play Station. Don't waste your time, and step away from the gamer. You will not be satisfied, or feel fulfilled.

Gamers you seriously need to take a long look at your lives. You need to plan what you want to do with your lives, what will make you happy, and you need to make it happen. Be positive! But please stop gaming. You will never be happy, and you will never make somebody else happy!

Gamers, I strongly suggest you put the controls down and get a life!