Diary of a non smoker entry 1

I'm a non smoker, I'm a non smoker, I'm a non smoker!

I am so anxious right now. I have gone 3 days without a cigarette, and I am ready to climb the walls. Tonight is the hardest night. I have fought severe cravings, and nearly cracked. I probably would have cracked if my parents weren't around to cast judgment.

I always have in the back of my mind "One cigarette isn't going to hurt," but I know it will. Each fag knocks minutes off of your life expectancy. I enjoy smoking, and part of my brain is saying "Why give up something that you enjoy?"

I am proud I resisted tonight, and decided I need to write about it. Somehow I feel this will keep me focused and motivated.

It is easy to feel lost, when you part from something that you thoroughly enjoy. I feel lonely. Honestly. Only a smoker or an ex smoker can understand this. I can only assume the non smokers out there think this is slightly pathetic. But, it really is difficult. More difficult than you can imagine.

I have decided to use very little nicotine replacement, and only use it when I have a major craving. This seems to help a bit in my times of crisis.

If only smoking was cheap, good for you, great for your skin, and smelt like Lush. Ah that would be bliss.

Wow, to think I will no longer stink, will have more money in my bank account, keep my youthful skin longer, and feel healthier. Great motivation. But will power is a must. Thinking of the benefits helps in the long term, but for the short term fix needed, the benefits pail in comparison.

I will keep this diary updated, as I am sure there will be plenty of drama ahead.