Melting...

I love hot weather, sunny hot sweaty weather is the best. However, today for some reason my body was rejecting the heat, it didn't like it. My head was saying "phwoarr it's gorgeous", and my body was saying "I give in, really I do, this is all too much"... Talk about a double bind, a nice recipe for anxiety there. It was all remedied with a nice cold shower.

The non smoking is going okay, I have cleaned and tidied this evening, despite the heat and my "oh poor me in the office all day long" lethargy... I find the anxiety brought on from nicotine withdrawal quite motivating, it's making me incredibly productive. The energy I have is amazing, even though my body does ache. Actually i was gardening this weekend and pulled my bum muscles quite bad...

Lot's of talk about anxiety today. We're all anxious, anxiety keeps us all going... Those with too much anxiety take prozac to level it out, like myself... Those with very little anxiety are... in receipt of JSA I should imagine. Oh that's a bit harsh really, as trade unionist I should know better than to make fun of poor people. Touching wood as we speak...