Prozac diary 3

Withdrawal Hell.

But, it's now over...

I stopped taking my medication 2 weeks ago. I spent 3 months slowly reducing my dose. Month by month feeling great and more human again.

Then 2 days after stopping my medication completely I was in withdrawal. It was absolutely awful.

My immediate reaction was to think I was having a nervous breakdown again. The symptoms were so strange. I had the most bizarre 'brain zaps'. They were like constant shots of electricity going through my brain. Horrendous. I constantly felt nauseous and dizzy. It was like waking up with severe vertigo.

I am not being a drama queen in the slightest. It was a terrifying experience. I thought I had reduced my medication sensibly and was not expecting such a reaction.

I went to the doctors just for some reassurance, and yes I was not 'cracking' up, and my symptoms were perfectly normal. How you can call 'brain zaps' normal I have no idea.

I am now fine, and I am so glad I stuck by my guns and refused to go back on the meds.

I'm also adjusting to my new emotional state. I was a zombie for 2 years. But now, emotions are like totally awesome! I feel myself welling up and wanting to burst into tears at every thought. This is not a negative thing. If I read something joyful in the newspaper, I have to fight to hold back the tears. It is so strange but so nice to be human again... To feel overwhelming happiness and joy, is such a pleasure!

I will keep you updated on my volatile emotional state!